From July 20th, 2008:I had a dream last night that was a convolution of many things. Maybe they were more than one dream and maybe they just all blurred together, I don’t know. One of them was John and I sitting in the big empty cafeteria room (multi-purpose room) back in high school. We were clearly seniors again, and we were being arranged in ( Read more... )

the clock is about to turn over here. Its weird, because back home, it already turned over. I remember the last two being happier occasions. A newer friend of mine asked me what i had done in the past for these occasions. Last year, i cooked dinner for my gf at the time, went bowling with friends, had a few drinks, and hit the white castle until ( Read more... )

It snowed just like I thought it would today. In fact, it was heavy. We had about 2-3 inches of snow fall in a matter of hours. It was kinda crazy and people here were acting like it was the apocalypse. They were exaggerating though, and so am I ( Read more... )

It is downright peculiar where your mind can go when it is left alone. I’ve mentioned this many times before, but it never ceases to amaze me how no matter what I learn, no matter what I do, no matter what happens, the same situation awaits me at the other side. Its all really downright silly. Illogical and improbable, but that’s how my mind works ( Read more... )

I’m in a strange place again. Sometimes I feel exhilarated. I feel like I’m ready to take on new challenges and move on, but rarely. It was tougher last week, when I really didn’t know where things where going. Since my trip home, I know some things just won’t work out now, and I guess I’m learning to live with that. Sometimes I feel like this is ( Read more... )

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking this week, thus far at least. I guess its only Wednesday, so there’s plenty of time to turn that around. I’m back from home now, or maybe I’m back home now? Its strange to call this place, Missouri, home. I guess in a way, it’ll never be home. It’s like when I was on campus. It was always home, but “home home” ( Read more... )

Nick foretold it. I was chatting with Nick today and he said, “it doesn’t matter how angry you get, you’re still the asshole, and she’s only going to get more frustrating.” I was kind of unhappy with that prediction. I replied something smug and self-serving like “I won’t let it get much further. Its going to come to a close one way or another ( Read more... )

Technology really doesn’t help. You’d think with all these fantastic inventions and the wide expanses of the information age, things would be easier. They’re not though. In fact, they’re worse. I can’t help but wonder what she’s doing now. I’m close now. Another few days to go and I’ll be home again. Now I’m left to wonder what’s going to happen ( Read more... )

You certainly can’t expect turnover like that. I know I don’t, but that doesn’t stop me from hoping it can happen ( Read more... )

Things are finally starting to slow down here. Since daylights savings time came to an end this weekend, I can tell that the days are getting shorter, and the world is getting colder. It seems oddly fitting. Things always turn for the worse this time of year. Why do I love it so much though ( Read more... )